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Title: Nightwatch
Author:[livejournal.com profile] jamjar
Fandom: Bandslash (RPS). Fall Out Boy/Gym Class Heroes
Person ultimately responsible: [livejournal.com profile] ficbyzee. She said things and she wrote things and she posted pictures and music and then she beta-read.
Notes: Fair warning, this is RPS, Patrick/Travis+Pete, with sexual content so avoid if that's not your cup of tea.
Disclaimer: Utterly fictional.



Pete approves of Patrick getting laid, for reasons that are not entirely altruistic. Patrick doesn't do the decent thing and share explicit details with helpful pictures and/or diagrams, like some of Pete's friends, but he is generally happier. Less inclined to temper, more likely to tolerate random physical affection. It's all good, really. And Pete likes Travis, too, doesn't spend nearly enough time with him. Travis is there, Patrick's there, Pete's there.

Random disappearances into the back of the bus or a hotel room aside, it's less like Patrick having someone, and more like Pete having one of his guys from another band hanging around. Someone to talk shit with, bitch about early morning interviews and late night flights, someone that's got a sufficiently twisted sense of humour to make the grade. If it wasn't for the bit where Travis and Patrick are plainly fucking (and this with the qualifier that Travis tends to give the impression that he's fucking just about anyone he spends more than ten minutes with, and Patrick's a little more reserved), Pete would just think of Travis as his friend, his guy on tour with them.

Which is better than good, really --it royally sucks when your friends date lousy people-- since it means Pete gets to have relaxed, happy Patrick, and someone he likes to hang with too.

That's pretty much it, occasional jerking-off random speculative fantasies aside.

Speculative, because as well as failing to provide details more explicit than, "he stayed at mine last night", Patrick also tends to avoid the making-out in public that give the rest of the world something nice to look at. Patrick isn't generous that way.

Off stage, on the bus or at the hotel, they're affectionate, arms across the shoulder and leaning in, but nothing spectacular. Right now, they're sitting next to each other on the couch in the hotel suite, and Travis has his arm across the back of the couch. Patrick's sitting next to him, but if you didn't know Patrick, you wouldn't know he was hooking up with Travis. And if you knew *Travis*, you'd assume he was just being himself, no extra meaning attached.

There's always something to watch on the tour, Amazon.com DVDs being both a blessing and a curse, but they always default back to the same couple dozen movies and shows, the ones no-one really objects to watching. Dragged along on every tour, going from bus to hotel to plane and back again.

Three Amigos, My Life As A Dog, Buffy Seasons 1 to 3, Green Wing--
nothing that, by this point, requires too much attention, but provides the perfect whitenoise to block out the endless sounds of the road. Tonight it's Three Amigos, which they can recite, word perfect, off by heart.

Joe and Andy disappear round about the time Dusty shot the invisible swordsman, leaving Pete enough space to lie down, fall asleep somewhere a little more human than his room in the hotel suite.

He's not actually sleeping as such, but not specifically awake, either. At that point where you're not quite sure if you did watch the movie, or if you're just remembering that bit from the last time you saw it, but he's pretty sure he stirs when Lucky tries to get the lever for his chains, because when he looks over, he sees Patrick and Travis more sprawled across each other than they were when he last looked.

Nothing more than they'd do on stage, really, but they're talking low, probably to keep from waking him up. Heads together, ignoring Lucky's desperate attempts at escape.

Pete's not looking, not really. He's just checking. Travis is a good guy and Patrick isn't a kid, but. But. There are a lot of ways something can be not-good, without it actually being specifically bad, and Pete knows most of them by heart. If anyone should benefit from his mistakes, it's Patrick.

When Patrick shifts slightly, pulling Travis down just a little, pulling himself up, kissing Travis, Pete's not watching, just watching out for him.

Seriously, if he was planning on getting off on this, he'd be calling out suggestions instead of keeping still, watching them make out, Travis pulling Patrick over a little. Lazy, slow kisses, Travis's hands on Patrick's waist. Pete would've told him to move them, Patrick being overly conscious about his stomach, but he's not watching them for that, to offer advice. He's just waiting to see if Travis knows this, if he's ignorant of it or ignoring it or whatever.


Travis leans back on the couch, taking Patrick with him, and Pete can only see one hand, holding on to Patrick's hip. Patrick says something that could be laughing, too low for Pete to hear clearly. He's got one hand braced on one side of the couch, one on the back. Holding himself up a little.

Travis's hand spreads wide, half disappears under Patrick's shirt. He says something, then leans up to kiss Patrick. Lazy, still, but Pete can recognise intent, just as easily as he can recognise convince-me in Patrick. He's not surprised when Patrick's legs spread out, just a little more. His own body tries to imitate it, that little roll of motion, but he stops himself. Doesn't want to disturb them, doesn't want to let Patrick get embarrassed about this.

Travis is a big guy, which isn't something Pete was ever oblivious of, not the sort of thing he can hide, but he never really took it in to account either. It wasn't a thing. Now, though, there's a difference in perspective. Pete's used to thinking of Patrick as solid, something to lean against, hold on to. He doesn't always think that Patrick's only average compared to the rest of the band.

They're obviously familiar with each other, Travis's hands on Patrick's hips -his kink, rather than Patrick's- but not holding him still, which Pete knows Patrick hates.

He could unzip his jeans, take his cock out, and the only thing that's stopping him is that Pete's never been the quiet type, he thinks, never been able to manage a discreet jerk-off and then a second later, tries to swallow back the thought. It's too late, he thought it, knows he thought it, watching them together for his own sake, not Patrick's.

It's wrong now, in a way that it wasn't before. He's looking for himself, selfish. Greedy. And now that he knows that, he has to stop, because it's not fair on them, on Patrick, if he doesn't.

He doesn't want to, but he stretches, fakes a sleepy mutter. His eyes are closed and turned away, but he can hear them stop moving.

"Pete?" Patrick says, sounding two seconds away from freaked out.

He stirs a little more, raises his head. "Hmm? Movie over?" He opens his eyes and blinks. "What'd I miss?" And, because he knows exactly what he would say, waking up to this, he lets himself grin at them, Travis's frustration, Patrick's quick internal debate over whether it's worse to be caught like this or to move back and let Pete know that he knows Pete caught them. "Huh. Looks like I missed the porn scene."

Patrick rolls his eyes and sits up, getting off Travis and pushing his feet to one side so he can sit down properly, tugging his T-shirt down.

Travis groans dramatically, then turns more on to his side. "You think that was the porn scene, you must have the tamest porn out there. PG-13 porn. Maybe if you'd given us a little more time..."

"I could pretend to fall asleep?" Pete offers.

"You two could both shut the fuck up," Patrick suggests, quietly muttering in to his T-shirt, before he looks at Pete. "You just woke up?"

"Think so. I wasn't really--" Pete shrugs and lets his head fall back down to the couch, settling in again. "You know me and that whole conscious thing." He turns to look at the screen. "Aw, I missed the raping the horses and riding off on the women. I love that bit."

He keeps his eyes on the screen --Sew, little grandmother! Sew like the wind!-- and gives Patrick the chance to take a few deep breaths, calm down.

"Sorry," Patrick says, suddenly. "I didn't-- we didn't mean to wake you."

"It's nothing," Pete says, looking at the screen. "Probably shouldn't go to sleep on the sofa anyway. Besides, as irresistible as Travis is..." He turns his head to smile at Travis. "You're a bad influence, leading our Patrick astray. One day, it's making out on couches with hot rappers, next it's TVs through hotel windows and a cautionary tale on VH1."

"Oh, fuck you," Patrick says, sounding pissy, normal. "Seriously, feel free to--"

And the thing is, Pete's still hard, and for a moment he thinks about saying something like, "Hey, I will if you will," but it's too close to the truth, so he just flips Patrick off. "Exhibitionist," he says. He meets Travis's eyes, with exaggerated nostalgia. "They grow up so fast."

"You must be proud," Travis says. He moves his legs up so Patrick can sit down more comfortably, then lays them over his lap. Patrick rests one hand on his calf, casual, companionable. Pete wonders if the fact that it seems like a wall or a safety bar or something is just in his head. Something to give a little bit more shelter, and he wonders --doesn't mean to, but he does-- if Patrick is hard.

They wait for the end of the movie, then Patrick yawns and says, "It's late, so--" and pushes Travis's legs off. They hit the floor with a thump, kind of forcing Travis to sit up as well. "We're just gonna get some sleep or something," he says.

Pete laughs. "My grandmother-- okay, bad example, my grandmother was kind of wild. Your grandmother wouldn't believe that."

"Hey, embrace the plausible deniability," Travis says. He stands up, offering Patrick a hand, and Pete's hit again with that weird sense of perspective: that Patrick is actually, short, that Travis is actually tall, and that matters less when you're lying down, but the logistics of it crosses his mind, against a wall, managing in the cramped bunk space on the bus.

"You two go ahead," he says. "I'm gonna watch the movie again, since I missed most of it. With the sound up, even. My gift to you."

He can see Travis bite some automatic remark back, like he was going to say something about vocalists and noise or banging and rhythm, but then stopped, weighed his odds of actually getting some tonight if he said it, and decided that scoring a point off Pete was not worth not-scoring with Patrick.

"We appreciate that," is what he says instead.

Pete waves dismissively. "No problem. You got the remote?"

Patrick finds it on the couch and comes over. Pete is again grateful that he's lying face down, that the cushions are soft and that it's perfectly natural for him not to get up, to just reach out a hand for the remote, the other hand tucked under his head.

The TV gives a weird light, changing too much to let your eyes adjust, and it makes Patrick's skin change colour in it, blueish, then orange, then whiter. Smooth, a blank canvas. The light's behind him, leaving most of him in relative shadows. For a second, Pete's brain almost disconnects --there's Patrick's hand, which he knows as well as he knows his own, shape and ability and the callouses and one note written in ballpoint on the back about needing more soy milk, and it's holding out the remote to him, and he's not quite sure what it means or what he's supposed to do. Patrick looks taller, solid and immoveable as a wall or a mountain, familiar and utterly foreign and Pete blanks on *everything*.

And then he remembers, and it fits back in to place. Remote control, he can hold it, and of course, Patrick can move, he's not a statue, and Pete's hand can move--that's what hands do. He must be more tired than he thought. So he takes the remote and Patrick says, "Try not to leave it running all night," and then he goes, taking Travis with him. Disappearing behind one the doors that lead off the suite's centre to the bedrooms.

Pete gets the DVD playing again, skipping past the first scene, starting with the amigos in Hollywood. Waits for the scene to get going properly, carefully turns on to his side, turns the volume up and closes his eyes. It's not the best camouflage sound, not noisy enough for that, but Pete can be pretty quiet. He unzips his jeans, takes his cock out, closes his eyes and for a moment, contemplates trying one of the regular fantasies, but he knows himself well enough to know that that's not going to work.

Not the first time he's fantasised about Patrick or Travis, but it's different, because it's not-- it's--

It's not about something imaginary, it's about picturing what they're doing right now. Not generic and forgivable and *meaningless*, but more like speculative voyeurism.

And jesus, effective, because he's hard and he's actually having to force himself to drag it out before he realises that no, he should do this quickly and get back to repressing. So he lets himself think about it -that flash of skin when Travis put his hands under Patrick's T-shirt, if they'd have time to actually fuck, or if they'd go for something with less prep, hands, mouths, slow and easy rolls of the body, Patrick more comfortable in the dark bunk, Travis *appreciative*, telling him things, whispering against his mouth, his neck, lower, and--

And that's it, that's all it takes, and Pete's grateful he's wearing a T-shirt so he can catch most of it, even more grateful that he doesn't have to do his own washing. He stays there for a moment, not thinking about anything, looking up at the hotel ceiling. White paint and plaster mouldings.

Not thinking only ever works for a limited time, but he can transition from that to distractions, focus on practicalities until he's ready to deal or repress more permanently. He can't lie here like this. Joe sleeps badly in hotels, might wander in. Patrick might come back, Travis might need to make a late-night drugstore run. Anything.

He gets up quietly, cleans himself off as much as he can. Contemplates dragging his case to his room, but settles for chucking his T-shirt in dirty clothes bag and grabbing a clean one to sleep in. He freezes when he hears a noise from one of the bedrooms, then looks for the remote, turning the volume up a little louder.

He really needs some sleep.



end.

Date: 2007-03-19 07:18 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] gigantic.livejournal.com
Oooh, what I like most about this is the way Pete can't help noticing things about them -- the way they work together and what attracts him to them -- even as he tries to convince himself that he doesn't pay attention to those things. And, gah, the idea of Travis touching Patrick's waist as they kiss. Such a lovely image.

This is awesome. :)

Date: 2007-03-19 07:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thanks! Zee is responsible for 60-85% of the awesomeness. I'm kind of fond of Travis touching Patrick's waist while they kiss myself.

Date: 2007-03-19 09:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cyanei.livejournal.com
YAY I AM VERY EXCITED THAT YOU ARE WRITING IN THIS FANDOM NOW.

I like the dichotomy between the image Pete portrays and the standards he holds himself to. I think everyone's a little like that, but Pete especially, because I don't think he really knows himself that well. And, you know, jerking off! Always good!

Date: 2007-03-19 11:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
I'm very excited about being in this fandom, and happy to see some familiar faces. I'm glad that the contrast, all those little bits of daily denial, came through.

Date: 2007-03-19 12:04 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] eckerlilas.livejournal.com
Ohhh, not enough Patrick/Travis fic in the world. No doubt about that.

Yes, Travis does have a thing about hips.

And this voyeuristic Pete is pretty awesome, indeed.

<3

Date: 2007-03-19 01:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
I think it would be very hard to have sufficient Patrick/Travis fic in the world. No matter how much you had, you'd still think, "maybe just one more drabble, or a little ficlet. That epic isn't really *that* long, is it?"

Date: 2007-03-19 03:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] callsigns.livejournal.com
*claps* Delicious! Where has this dynamic been all my life?

I was going to playfully complain about the lack of actual sex, but I think this is remarkably true to a Pete POV, for not only the observations and narrative to be all about him, but the plotline as well. Very nicely done!

Date: 2007-03-19 09:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thanks! It kind of amazes me that I had such a nice, easy set-up and still failed to produce the appropriate porn. I mean, really! Travis! Patrick! Pete! Voyeurism! Making out on couches! How did actual sex not result?

I can only conclude that my mind is perverse, and not in the good way.

Date: 2007-03-19 11:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] overloved.livejournal.com
i also approve of patrick getting laid. this is so sexy. and pete's melancholy is really well-handled. it's not too much.

Date: 2007-03-19 11:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thanks! I think the world is probably a better, brighter place when Patrick is getting some.

I'm glad the mood came across for you.

Date: 2007-03-19 11:26 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] janetbond007.livejournal.com
You know, last night I was thinking about how there should SO Much MORE patrick/travie in the world.
And here it is!
And more: It's good!

Date: 2007-03-20 09:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
There really does need to be more out there. The lack is forcing me to write my own, dammit!

Date: 2007-03-20 02:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] annaalamode.livejournal.com
Zee told me to read this and give you feedback so you will keep writing in this fandom. I love jealous!Pete and this fic totally filled my RDA of him.

Date: 2007-03-20 09:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
I like jealous Pete as well, particularly when he's jealous of Patrick.

Date: 2007-03-20 11:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] annaalamode.livejournal.com
I have always seen Pete as not very possesive except when it comes to Patrick. (Or at least that bit is true in my head.) So I like seeing more fic along those lines.

Date: 2007-03-20 07:19 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] violin-road.livejournal.com
WELCOME TO BANDOM. WE ARE OH SO HAPPY TO HAVE YOU.

Date: 2007-03-21 05:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
I'm very happy to be here.

Date: 2007-03-23 07:24 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] lemonsherry.livejournal.com
absolutely loved. Patrick/Trav is a fav pairing of mine, but its hardly ever written.

Looking forward to seeing more of your fic in this fandom =]

Date: 2007-03-24 02:23 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thanks! I'm looking forward to writing more.

Date: 2007-04-06 05:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] robjlea.livejournal.com
I like that Pete stops once it is about him and not looking out for Patrick.

I also love how you write about Travis taking into hand Patrick's reaction against getting one on Pete and how this may sound weird but that Patrick and Travis are together - not casual hooking up but together.

The size difference is also a great observation.

Date: 2007-04-06 05:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
The size difference is also a great observation.

Have you seen the video with Travis and Andy, where Andy's beatboxing? Because at the end Travis practically swamps Andy when he hugs him, he's that much taller, and I'm pretty sure Patrick's smaller than Andy. Fall Out Boy are just pretty tiny and Travis really isn't.

Date: 2007-04-06 05:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] robjlea.livejournal.com
No I haven't seen that video. Do you know where I could watch/dl it?

Date: 2007-04-06 05:45 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
YouTube has it here (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ExkshyCPP5k)

Date: 2007-04-06 05:49 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] robjlea.livejournal.com
That is hilarious - he just swoops down and like you said swamps him. It's like he's there and then he's gone. *swoop*

Date: 2007-04-06 05:51 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Yeah. All of Fall Out Boy are so small, it's not so noticeable until they're next to someone like Travis or William Beckett or Gabe, and then it's kind of... wow, you're actually pretty tiny.

Date: 2007-04-11 12:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] omgimnaked.livejournal.com
Ngg. Patrick/Travie is my faaavorite and there's Pete too and jklafjds. <333

Date: 2007-09-11 07:03 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
I have such fondness for everyone there, in pretty much any combination.

Date: 2007-09-11 01:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raveninthewind.livejournal.com
Oh, this hits my voyeuristic kink...I love the many grounding details. Pete's POV is great--you can see how much he loves Patrick as a friend, and you can see the attraction to Patrick (and Travis) that he's refusing to acknowledge. Nice balance of self-deception and self-awareness in this piece!

Two things pinged my ear as Brit speak (don't know if you care about those things):
Not the first time he's fantasised -- instead of "fantasized"
he stayed at mine last night", Patrick also tends to avoid the making-out in public that give the rest of the world something nice to look at -- "at mine" vs. "stayed at my place"
(also should be "gives" instead of give--ned a sig. verb here)

Date: 2007-09-11 07:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thanks for the feedback, and pointing out the brit-speak. I don't actually americanise spellings (I don't really see it as necessary). Grammar and vocab are different, though, because that feeds into character voice, the rhythm of their speech. I do try to keep the appropriate grammar for that character, the right flavour of American, much as I can.

I did have it American-checked, but the girl was from Salt Lake and Portland. Might that have made a difference?

definitely your call on the spellings--

Date: 2007-09-11 05:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] raveninthewind.livejournal.com
I did have it American-checked, but the girl was from Salt Lake and Portland. Might that have made a difference?

Not with this particular phrase, in my experience. But I think it would ping to the ear as wrong more or less depending on how much UK media she's been watching. I mean, after I've mainlined BBC America or rewatched QAFUK, I probably wouldn't notice. I use the phrase myself while conscious that it's not usually used to speak to the people I am speaking to.

Re: definitely your call on the spellings--

Date: 2007-09-11 05:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Huh. She's not in any UK fandoms, now or ever, really. This is kind of interesting. I love these linguistic differences. It's not just the big ones (UK uses much more perfect tense than the USA, trousers vs pants and so on), but all these little things that come up.

Date: 2008-06-24 08:56 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shirasade
I have such a thing for seeing through a third party's eyes - and this was so very yummy, because it was Pete, who couldn't help himself, who shouldn't but still does... Yummy!

Date: 2008-06-25 06:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jamjar.livejournal.com
Thank you, I have a real fondness for third-party and bystander fic myself.

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